As many of you know from reading this blog, I am in no hurry to wean. Was in no hurry to wean? Ack. I am up and down right now. Let me start from the middle. Ha ha. Much of this post is over-simplified, but I am still sorting through all of the emotions associated with this process.
When the opportunity came up for me to take an assignment in Washington D.C., I carefully weighed, among other things, what that would mean to The Boy and nursing. While there were times in the past that I had wondered if the day would ever come, or wished it would end (pre-period and during the first few days, my breasts are sensitive!), I also cherished each opportunity to nurse The Boy. Those opportunities were coming further and further apart, however, and I could feel our nursing relationship changing. Combining his increasing independence and lack of a reliance on nursing to do things that only nursing could do for him with his attachment to Kevin, and the opportunity seemed to come at a time where I could leave for a while and feel good about The Boy’s maturity in handling what was happening.
From the time I had found out that I had been selected for D.C. until my departure, the longest separation to date for me and The Boy, we spoke at the two and a half year old level about not nursing any more. Like the “other” times we had spoken about nursing, and he had told me (or I had an absence coming) he was going to stop, I suspected the day would come and go without much difference—he would ask to nurse. Most times when I must travel, we speak on the phone and he tells me that when I get home, he wants to nurse. Twelve days or so in to D.C. and not one mention. Not a single one.
He will be here in early August, almost a month since our last nursing session, and if he asks to nurse, I will allow it, but there will be no milk. That I am fairly certain of. I have felt no physical discomfort, but my emotions? They are all over the place. I will try to sort through them all and formulate some more coherent posts on “When Weaning Happens.”